Day 269

I was thinking about the power of the mind and positive energy over the past week and the ability to control emotional choices. After going through a stem cell transplant, my immune system was wiped out. But as it rebuilds, its like being a child all over again and I need to challenge it a bit, so it can learn how to heal itself. The week after Thanksgiving was tough with a horrible sore throat, cold, etc… ending in loss of voice for a few days. Although I pushed on and worked hard that week, I kept telling myself to heal: “make good blood” is my evening thought before falling asleep.

I believe it and 7 days later feeling great!

When I was in college I read a book called stress for success and it talks about good and bad stress and my reality is that stress is totally a function of belief. Physical stress and mental stress exercise my body and mind. Learning to be aware of stress and turning it into positive energy is my daily challenge.

I learned so much from my reiki coach last year and thankful for her guidance. She taught me to be aware of my random thoughts constantly coming and going and how to quiet them and let them pass by, without disrupting my emotions. And that is not easy but doable, if I acknowledge them.

My closest friends have reminded me over the past few weeks that I do have cancer and I do need to take time off to rest, because I am back to my longer, intense work filled days. Thank goodness I have them to support me! It is easy when I am feeling so healthy or ” normal” or A+, as my Dr. put it, to go to a place of denial.

Enough rambling… just felt the need to remind myself that it had been 8 months since day zero and I am thankful for every moment of this adventure!